Day 5 of my Manifestation Miracle Journey
Today was my anniversary, needless to say. . .a bad day! I could expound upon the difficulties but anyone who has gone through a break up remembers how the special days or special songs or even a smell can trigger a flood of all the memories and nearly bring you to your knees. So, instead, I will move on to my challenges in hopes that there is a miracle in there waiting for me.
As I have learned in the past several days, my body has lots of secrets that it has yet to divulge to me and your dreams are another way to access those secrets. So before going to bed last night, I asked my intuition to show me something in my dreams. Upon waking up this morning, perhaps my body did reveal something. My dream was a very busy work day followed by an awkward date. Interesting. . .I am asking for money/work success and love so it is funny to me that my dream would depict those two images. But, is that just dreaming about the things that I am spending more time thinking about or is it in fact a preview of my future? Am I supposed to read deeper into it or just take it at face value? Since I am not a dream decipherer, I will take it at face value!
“Intuition is truth, ego is doubt and fear.”
Wow. . .that line really hit me. I encourage you to re-read it several times as I did and really let it sink in before moving on. There is such a power in that statement. Intuition is truth, intuition is based in love. Ego is all the negative that you can come up with surrounding any situation and if you are like me. . .you can come up with a lot of negative. Don’t get me wrong, I have plenty of moments where I feel excited and positive about my life and future. However, those are only to be followed very quickly with a negative thought or nervous feeling. I guess this is the answer to what is happening, my ego filling me with fear. My ego that doesn’t want to fail or lose. My fear of believing in something or having hope only to see it lost, that is a tough blow and sometimes almost too much so my ego slips the doubting thoughts in my head. How do I trust my intuition? It is leading me to a happy future but I consistently do not trust it.
Look, I know that my path in life is unique, as is everyone’s. And clearly I am supposed to learn some lesson that I haven’t learned yet since I am continually put into the same situation over and over and over. I have come to realize in my last two relationships that I was willing to put his happiness and success before mine. I wanted to do everything to make their life better, which is a good trait and one that is necessary (to a certain extent) in any relationship but the cost should never be your own success or happiness. While I am in the situation, I believe that I am reacting or responding differently but the end result is always the same. . . I read somewhere that we are given the same problem over and over until we get the right answer. Clearly, I have not learned the right answer yet, but I am going to get it figured out.
3 things –
- I am grateful for my feisty friend, Kristine. She is my humor and laughter. She loves me just as I am, happy or broken.
- I am grateful for my dear friend, Kim. She takes me out of my fantasy world with truth. She doesn’t sugar coat the truth, but she does say things with love and I know she has my heart in mind.
- I am grateful for my amazing son, Logan. He is so closed off but when he is feeling soft and sensitive, then he truly shines.
Today’s analysis. . .it was a difficult day but by focusing on my daily journey I actually feel ok. I feel a purpose in actively seeking the right answer to my repetitive problem and I am confident that I will finally get it right. I am happily calling today a success despite the pain of the day.
Written by: Annie McFarland | @calmmcfarland |